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Ashleigh Vaughn's avatar

This is the reality of many depressed people. Not wanting to die, but tired from existing and fighting to stay by self-medicating to numb the pain. I see myself in so many of these words.

Beautifully raw and heartbreaking piece, Tacita.

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Tacita B's avatar

Thank you Ashleigh. Its a sad place to be in. Just wanting the relentless pain to stop and feeling the perpetual exhaustion from fighting day in, day out. Thank you for sharing 💙

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Angela's avatar

I’ve been trying to kick my weed habit recently but it’s soooo impossible for me. It’s the only thing I want to do after work. Related to a lot of this!

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Tacita B's avatar

I relate so much! Before I discovered alcohol, smoking was it for me. Then I combined the two, then I dropped smoking and now I’ve dropped both. Takes a while but you’ll get there Angela 🫶🏽

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Coffee Times's avatar

Thank you for sharing your honest and poignant reflections on Dry January. Taking any step, no matter how small, in the right direction is a significant achievement. Wishing you continued strength and resilience on your journey.

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Tacita B's avatar

Thank you for reading Winston! 🫶🏽

Exactly. A step in the right direction is still a step 💪🏽

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Caroline Beidler, MSW's avatar

Love your honesty. ❤️‍🩹

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Tacita B's avatar

Thank you Caroline🫶🏽

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Julie Fontes's avatar

One of the most depressed times of my life happened during employment under fluorescent lights...my mood was instantly lifted when I got a job at a country club. Nothing feels as dark as fluorescent lighting.

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Tacita B's avatar

“Nothing feels as dark as fluorescent lighting.” Ahh you poet Julie! 🫶🏽 I 100% agree. It’s bleak to say the least.

I’m glad you managed to find a way out! I’ve gone the WFH route 🥹

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Luna~Moth's avatar

Your words weigh heavy with truth and value, I appreciate you

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Tacita B's avatar

Thank you Luna🫶🏽

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Raveen's avatar

Sorry you had to go through that experience.

It's really unfortunate and signifies a failure of the system such that many people are forced to work boring, life-draining jobs that they despise, and makes them miserable, thus worsening their mental health condition.

In that sense, the job sector in many countries doesn't treat the workforce as human beings, but instead as autonomous robots without emotional needs.

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Tacita B's avatar

Thanks Raveen 💙

Honestly like the system was built to keep little worker bees working while the 1% stay the 1%😅💀

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